Post by Clyde on Dec 8, 2008 21:39:18 GMT -6
Ok, I just wanted to post this quick. I'll give a description of the organization tomorrow!
This was a comment I found on their myspace page:
I thank u guys for what ur doing. Is to bring awarness for ppl who need to learn bout acceptance towards this, who need to stop cuz of this or not feel alone. I honestly do feel alone at times even though i thank my friends for loveing me, but im still fuckin sad at times. I have a noticable cut on my left wrist, and some cuts on my stomach. I mean my stomach ppl cant tell, but i wear long sleeves or i tend to not raise my left hand much. I feel like sum may understand n others dont. I was never a cutter type, as i thought, i thought it was stupid much, but when i was being abused ex i started cutting and its jus taking out anger/sadness in a way ppl cant see for the moment and the cut when it hits the air was a kind of high, but before that i was bulimic. Its jus that sum ppl i kno or most i dont tell this too becuase i dont believe they could fully understand it from my point of view or others who have been through it. Even though u guys r helpin theres still so many more miles of progress to go. I see TWLOHA honestly at first i thought it was just sum social statement and i was like "so theres this girl renee, the music, sounds kinda scene, or punk/alt. movement again". Cuz those r the majority wearing it, but i guess i still feel alienated cuz ive cut my self and was bulimic for bout a year, but as ppl who've been though these stages realize it goes farther than a story, its still emotions that i hate myself for but i kno better also cuz my mind wasnt able to function clearly for those many months leading up to this self abuse, during it and finally realizing this isnt the life/lifestyle i wanted. Being bulimic i was so afarid to leave food in my stomah for 1meal cuz i thought id get fat cuz i over ate, its an endless cycle, but i still get burps that feel like vomit, my esophagus has been damaged, and im glad i stoppd cuz its so bad, plus being bulimic i had no energy, i went through the day wishing i could jus lay down or nap and the pain would s
It kinda cuts of there, but that's so cool! More tomorrow!
Then a poem on their page that I found just as I was logging out...:
WARPED AND TWISTED
Harsh words and violent blows
hidden secrets nobody knows
eyes are opened, hands are fisted
deep inside I'm warped and twisted.
So many tricks and so many lies
too many whens and too many whys
Nobobies special and nobody is gifted
Im just me warped and twisted
sleeping awake and choking on a dream.
listening to my silent scream
call my mind the numbers unlisted.
lost in someone so warped and twisted.
On my knees alive, but dead
look at all the blood Ive bled
Im not gone my minds just drifted
dont expect much Im warped and twisted
burnt out,wasted empty, and hollow
todays just yesterdays tomorro
The suns died out the ashes sifted
Im still here warped and twisted.
One more, I swear, this is just a comment, but it shows how awesome this organization is!
I added twloha back in june when my life
seemed like it was spiraling,and I felt like Id been swept into a tornado of hurt,destruction,and hate thats was all towards myself.Ive been wanting to comment here and openly tell you how grateful I am & how wonderful it is what you do here,but for so long Id worn fresh cuts and have felt like I'd let you all down and was a failure to what this organization stands for.{what makes this worse is all the time I was screaming out to my friends to help me but none of them seemed to think that "my problem"was a big deal.}So niether did I.I quickly relized that no one was going to help me,that "I was to much" for ppl.then one day after my first "real scare" I relized that I didnt want to die And this isnt what I wanted,and I came to this page and read a list of comments and storys,and through that I found the insperation and the encouragement I needed,Its still hard sometimes,But thanks to all of you Ive now been cut free for 7 nonths!
so thank you, all of you
I wouldnt be alive without you.
Jay¢¾
This was a comment I found on their myspace page:
I thank u guys for what ur doing. Is to bring awarness for ppl who need to learn bout acceptance towards this, who need to stop cuz of this or not feel alone. I honestly do feel alone at times even though i thank my friends for loveing me, but im still fuckin sad at times. I have a noticable cut on my left wrist, and some cuts on my stomach. I mean my stomach ppl cant tell, but i wear long sleeves or i tend to not raise my left hand much. I feel like sum may understand n others dont. I was never a cutter type, as i thought, i thought it was stupid much, but when i was being abused ex i started cutting and its jus taking out anger/sadness in a way ppl cant see for the moment and the cut when it hits the air was a kind of high, but before that i was bulimic. Its jus that sum ppl i kno or most i dont tell this too becuase i dont believe they could fully understand it from my point of view or others who have been through it. Even though u guys r helpin theres still so many more miles of progress to go. I see TWLOHA honestly at first i thought it was just sum social statement and i was like "so theres this girl renee, the music, sounds kinda scene, or punk/alt. movement again". Cuz those r the majority wearing it, but i guess i still feel alienated cuz ive cut my self and was bulimic for bout a year, but as ppl who've been though these stages realize it goes farther than a story, its still emotions that i hate myself for but i kno better also cuz my mind wasnt able to function clearly for those many months leading up to this self abuse, during it and finally realizing this isnt the life/lifestyle i wanted. Being bulimic i was so afarid to leave food in my stomah for 1meal cuz i thought id get fat cuz i over ate, its an endless cycle, but i still get burps that feel like vomit, my esophagus has been damaged, and im glad i stoppd cuz its so bad, plus being bulimic i had no energy, i went through the day wishing i could jus lay down or nap and the pain would s
It kinda cuts of there, but that's so cool! More tomorrow!
Then a poem on their page that I found just as I was logging out...:
WARPED AND TWISTED
Harsh words and violent blows
hidden secrets nobody knows
eyes are opened, hands are fisted
deep inside I'm warped and twisted.
So many tricks and so many lies
too many whens and too many whys
Nobobies special and nobody is gifted
Im just me warped and twisted
sleeping awake and choking on a dream.
listening to my silent scream
call my mind the numbers unlisted.
lost in someone so warped and twisted.
On my knees alive, but dead
look at all the blood Ive bled
Im not gone my minds just drifted
dont expect much Im warped and twisted
burnt out,wasted empty, and hollow
todays just yesterdays tomorro
The suns died out the ashes sifted
Im still here warped and twisted.
One more, I swear, this is just a comment, but it shows how awesome this organization is!
I added twloha back in june when my life
seemed like it was spiraling,and I felt like Id been swept into a tornado of hurt,destruction,and hate thats was all towards myself.Ive been wanting to comment here and openly tell you how grateful I am & how wonderful it is what you do here,but for so long Id worn fresh cuts and have felt like I'd let you all down and was a failure to what this organization stands for.{what makes this worse is all the time I was screaming out to my friends to help me but none of them seemed to think that "my problem"was a big deal.}So niether did I.I quickly relized that no one was going to help me,that "I was to much" for ppl.then one day after my first "real scare" I relized that I didnt want to die And this isnt what I wanted,and I came to this page and read a list of comments and storys,and through that I found the insperation and the encouragement I needed,Its still hard sometimes,But thanks to all of you Ive now been cut free for 7 nonths!
so thank you, all of you
I wouldnt be alive without you.
Jay¢¾
